MARY L. CARTER, INC
NEW PORT RICHEY, FLORIDA

I started to identify my biggest bully being myself last summer and I slowly started researching ways to help improve my state of “being”. Last December I went FULL FORCE and HEAD ON INTO my “Building a Better Human Revolution/The Magnificent Mary Lou Mission”. I have gone to counseling, mentors, life coaches, Buddhists meetings, became an SGI Buddhist, currently attending the American Jewish University to learn religion for the first time, attend and still attend self improvement seminars, lectures, women’s seminars, INTENSE healing women’s retreats, 2 different 12 step groups (OA and SLAA), I got involved in many charity efforts, volunteer work, and got obsessed with helping others flourish while I am learning/growing. ALL THIS and I am STILL faced with this darkness?!?!?!?!?!?! Yes, I know you must have darkness to know light… I know there has to be a balance of good and evil, I know that I went thru what I went thru so I can share and inspire others, etc. etc. IT’s STILL REALLY ANNOYING! Especially now since my eyes are OPEN! I do see a difference though in my processing because now I am a witness to it instead of going deep into the darkness, then going too deep and staying there for days/weeks, and then going into fantasyland of how to escape either by chucking it all and disappearing or ending it all. <— NO FUN BEING THERE! NO FUN FOR ANYONE! In 2000 instead of attempting suicide again I asked for help and my friend took me to a hospital in Culver City and stayed by my side for days. (RIP Hugh Bateman you were my savior and friend in more ways than I could even express. Fortunately I don’t know if it was 6 Right now I think I am doing what I have always done (usually sooner than this) Once the going gets good… SABOTAGE IT! Why? Because I believed the bullies, the abusers, and the predators that were telling me that I was nothing and unloved! Most of all I believed MYSELF that was telling me that I was nothing and unloved! THE TRUTH IS… I AM EVERYTHING! I DESERVE HAPPPINESS! I AM BEAUTIFUL! I AM LOVED! WE ARE ALL CONNECTED! WE ALL WANT THE SAME THINGS! WE ARE ALL ONE! I am a Fitness Guru, a Vegan Food Fanatic, a Photographer, a Poet, a Spiritual and Positive Guide to myself and those around me... Hoping to help make the world a better place... One day at a time... One Person at a time... One Blog at a time... I have also lived what seems to be 100 lives! My motto used to be "I am Mary... I am Many" I have had websites and a web presence in the entertainment business since there has been a web. So with that said, I added some of the history and adventures of the ‘Old Mary’ to mix in with the ‘New Mary’ and compiled an all-in-one place of the Many Me’s. For in Life... We Are What We Have Been and... What Is... Is but A Prelude to This Moment.